Chapter: 8 / 19 (+ epilogue) Author
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Genre: Fantasy original
Rating:
Angst Pairing: Elmar + Iduned
Notes The characters are all mine, I use them grimly to my fun ... and hopefully for yours! ___
The day went exactly as predicted in the morning.
The gray skies, heavy drizzle to the ice that bounced off the armor and training, which stained the leather, drenching his clothes and hair.
The boys seemed too busy trying to avoid making too many bad impression to notice, and the Knights were to assist teachers who were quite accustomed to the weather for us not even the case.
Kandak moved, slowly and silently as it was usually along the courtyard of training with eyes on them but my mind was far away.
That smell of fatigue and mud and rubbed on the metal blades of attention, the items they were seeking entries in a typical way that could not make him remember that the battles.
Past and future.
Kandak sighed: it was five months before their return to actual combat.
Each of the three armies would change position every year, in turn: taking care of the links, fighting on the border, protect the capital and train the Cadets. That last post, even if double, it was just a nice way and tolerated by their pride in order to define the rest.
Five months and would come back to the border.
The mud, dust, sweat, blood.
And the futility of everything.
Kandak lowered his head was a knight, was a captain. He was born to fight, he had been trained to die and would never have pulled back, but ... but when the sense of what they were fighting was not, when to hold them up was just a cold and empty feeling of self-serving allegiance to their lord, my heart became heavy, and difficult to sustain.
obey without thinking?
looked at the Cadet that landed by his master, smiled slightly embarrassed and acknowledged the pride in his eyes, and a force that could not be masked.
would have been nice to be able to live as a young cadet thought they would live: turn off the ideas, feelings, clear your mind and act like an armature blank consciousness. He loved the old stories of unconditional loyalty, absolute adherence to the orders, sometimes incomprehensible, but they were only myths, impossible to recreate or live.
least for him, consciousness was always a voice with out having to come to terms.
Hastor, when they spoke of the war, looking at him, smiling, saying it was for those who loved him.
Hastor.
have already begun to argue for the transfer if they were not, both were absorbed by problems far more pressing.
Because when he had been instructed to return to the border with his army, Hastor would follow him.
would not serve the prayers, threats. Would not be used to appeal to his sense of duty. Would not be used to pray the King to make him the grace to require him there, the Capital, at the cost of putting in prison.
Nor is it served to remind him that he was in the Academy to train cadets, because every time he could do in order to condense the lessons available for months on end.
and use them back to be medical field.
An army had always need someone to cure the wounds of the bloody war without end.
Kandak clenched his fists.
Hastor And he was good. He had years of experience, had attention and sensitivity. None
Army would have rejected him, even if he had lobbied Kandak in person about it, and if the Wizard had to stay in battle, would be at his side.
She was already resigned to this. He could end up in another way: to bury friends, comrades, and Hastor at his side, his hands covered with their blood, in silence.
had learned over the years, the miracles that even the Wizards knew them, and a sword to pierce his chest meant death, however long it could be agony.
a magician, after all, was also used to that: the doctors were more "formal" on certain issues.
Physicians tended to always fight, and only, for life. Hastor, however, in some way impossible to explain, was one of them, and he knew that there were moments, and there were injuries, they deserved much more than that fiercely proud of the men believed to be fighting a battle for points with death.
death could be lenient.
Death, at times, could be the best choice, the most honorable. The more human.
Hastor know.
why none of them could really wish that someone else had to wait in the infirmary tent, on the day, from an assault, were not returned on their own feet.
smiled: how could he not? A Cadet
stared in amazement, without understanding that that phrase was not directed at him. Some Knights, however, giggle response, taking the young and ordering a merger that had been lost.
Thinking Hastor now and smile, it was all one to him. Feel full, satisfied.
had once talked about a lot more things, had made important speeches, which seemed to contain questions on the heart of the world.
The Wizard also asked him once why do not you marry her: to continue the name, to have heirs. He was never jealous of that, it had strongly reassured. Kandak had believed him, but he also believed strongly that something was seen off at the bottom of his eye, and this could not afford it. Not if it would ever be forgiven. For
What, then, in return?
One of the teachers shouted the rest. He heard a cadet, beside him, almost sobbing with relief in dropping to the ground.
Children?
had only to look around to see dozens of children: children who were trained, who trained boys to become men who had accompanied him.
Many of them now, they were men to be proud of, and were and remained his children.
their children. His
and Hastor.
He never thought of being a sentimentalist. He became one, though: maybe it was because of age, or maybe it was Hastor to soften it. What I felt
inside when she thought of him, was inexplicable.
The voice of a knight stood up, annoyed, 'not to do certain things, because you do not know you talking about!'
Kandak glanced light toward them, the Knights did not need their support to resume the boys. Besides, he did not need to ask questions to find out what chat newcomers.
He could have bet anything, and he knew he would win.
A sigh.
The Snake.
them, if they were lucky, they had only glimpsed from afar, and knew nothing about.
They had never been to a few inches from him, had never been able to staring eyes.
a snort.
The Snake: thin as a dancer, elegant, beautiful.
If it was not the King to find it, they would have sold, and would be a perfect guy to please.
Kandak allowed himself a bitter grin at that thought he knew enough of the blood and the heat of passion to know that, one way, dress the right way, with, perhaps, his eyes made more profound by the makeup and lip gloss would have been able to drive anyone crazy. His master had made a fortune. Customers would have scrambled to come first to touch the pale skin that seemed to have the consistency of the finest silk. She must not have never taken a ray of sunshine in all his life, and certainly had never worked.
did not like, but Kandak was able to recognize the charm. And the snake was like a pearl: a rare and precious. Beautiful and unique.
A couple of knights, returning from a mission in the city, sprang to attention in front of him and were old enough to be able to afford to smile, too. He nodded in response.
them as if they knew of his blood. He had grown up with them, learned what it was through their eyes. And were they, or people like them, to clarify many aspects of himself. That thought was used to evoke memories can fill an infinite number of evenings spent making jokes about the past.
"And Master Hastor?" Asked one of them.
He said something vague.
It was thanks to them that he had discovered when Hastor really had changed. Warmth, happiness, balance showed that even outside, something that had never really believed we could prove.
Even more astonishing was the absence of jealousy from his heart, though he had always been a man of blood and possessive.
had been jealous about anything in his life, but never Hastor.
remembered his comrades, years before, who mocked him for taking, as a lover, a Mage, when anyone could have jumped into his mind.
remembered appreciation of some of them, the way in which the garment, and bound up his life, on how to walk on his hands. And he continued to hear them: of those, at least, who had remained alive and had not been moved to another army. Raul
remembered when they had fought up to the hands, for him.
remembered Nicholas, when he was asked to be assigned to the front in permanent, because he had confessed, would not have been able to control himself more, and saw there was not anything more shameful that undermine the mistress of a companion.
remembered their lines, recalled the look, wonder, envy fun, jokes, and even the most abject lust. He remembered the laughter, irritation, pride, anger, quarrels.
Mai jealousy.
He had never been jealous of him and his behavior. He had always been wonderful, and had always been certain that it was his.
After years in which he considered vital to demonstrate its value to make their word worthy to be believed, Hastor had smiled, and had given him confidence.
without asking anything in return.
laughter made him return to the present.
Rain, standing with his fists on his hips, looking at a young Cadet leaning with his back to the high magnolia stood at the center of the garden training.
At the very place where he had kissed Hastor the first time. He sighed, half way between the angry, and amused himself. The young man seemed
tried, but peaceful, and Knight seemed to be doing his best to lighten the heart.
Maybe he should not have, but Kandak could not deny that he always had a soft spot for Rain. It was a good boy, open, generous and strong. Worthy son of the man who, years earlier, had encouraged a young Kandak to apply for admission to the Academy.
A soldier, a warrior, a friend of his parents who had loved and protected as if it was really a father.
The time he had turned away, as happened in all real families, and had heard only with a large delay of the death of his wife. But he had not surprised, knowing him, his decision to bring his small children, along the border.
Rain grew up in a barracks and, against all reasonable expectation, he became the man who laughed in the face now.
His father would be proud of him.
Kandak found he had a soft spot for him because he was exactly what he wanted to be when she had her age.
At his side, Derek leaned next to the cadet, and was a wrist wrap, as she smiled back at Kandak a joke that was not caught. Rain was
Perhaps what was even on his own: together they were so well matched, it was almost impossible to believe is separate. They, too, now, is frequented for years, and their relationship, day by day, appeared balanced, light, the passion that made them scream - sometimes a bit 'too loud, gave depth to their eyes, and patience and courage.
If anyone out there still wondering why the Knights, who generally resented any form of romantic relationship too close, they were more than willing to accept and render explicit certain bonds arose within their ranks, here, would have to see those two. The tenacity that drew from that constraint, and instill confidence that they knew who looked at them as if they had stayed together so long, nothing could go really bad.
Rain suddenly noticed to be fixed, she turned toward him, amazed. Took on a hesitant, as if afraid of saying too much, or touching topics that the captain did not consider responsive.
Kandak put a hand on his shoulder, silently, with a half smile.
believed to be clear by now that his mind was far from there.
A shiver: and this struck him in full. Kandak came back, suddenly aware of cold, light rain that soaked her hair, the heavy gray sky above them, the taste of winter in my bones.
He turned. As always, could not say what he had called, what had made him aware of his presence.
There was a time, newly appointed captain, which was created a thousand doubts about whether it was lawful or not approach him like that, den with alacrity, with that light in his eyes. He had learned well that there were details that made him less worthy of respect.
Hastor froze in see it, an odd, obsessed gaze.
"Hastor ..." He could not
not to worry. He would have liked. He merely frowned.
The Magician turned. Behind him was a young servant who was carrying several books in her arms.
"Do not let them get wet! - Hoarse voice scratched the back of the throat, forced out. Alarmed, instinctively squeezed him the book he held in his arms. His shoulders were shaking slightly and his eyes wide open, they were shining like mirrors. Kandak and stared for a moment, seemed not to recognize it - we go ... "
Kandak grabbed the book with a resolute expression. She looked startled, as if the volume had been a kind of lifeline.
"Tired. You have not slept. "
did not need to ask you, there were many dawns that had seen him collapse in a chair with that look. There had been spent whole nights in a cold bed, alone, with a pale shaft of light seeping out from under the door jamb of the door is closed, and he in the other room: she heard him move slightly in turning the pages, or writing with the stylus scratching the parchment.
had never seemed so tired.
"Follow me - put a hand on her arm, kind - Rain? Call the servants to prepare and make the room of Master Hastor, and make sure you come back unscathed from this servant his master. Derek, There is the books. "
Knights snapped. Hastor remained calm: Derek, among them all, was the only one that would have given, without any fear, its treasures.
smiled: he would almost have to feel jealous.
Rain ran off. Derek called one of the Cadets.
Kandak Then he stopped caring for them under his hand and heavy cloth, Hastor trembled.
His room warm enough for me.
He did sit down, forced him to swallow a herbal tea, prevented him to trouble for books, or his studies. Rain then walked away, and helped him get rid of his tunic.
She looked at him, smiling, blacks pants, tight, and the soft wool sweater, slim, dark, coming up to wrap around the neck, along the lines of his body, showing grace.
Hastor's eyes were sparkling clean, lost, and his hands trembled visibly, even if the skin was no longer cold.
anger, or concern. He would know: he had time.
"You must rest."
Sweet, smiled at him. Hastor looked up at him, circled with dark shadows.
"I have to finish ..."
He moved his hand, pointing somewhere behind Kandak.
"After. Now rest. "
moved, nervous. Objected something, but did not have enough strength, or desire, to refuse really. When
Kandak accompanied him to bed, still dressed, he found the time to get comfortable. He fell asleep almost immediately, just resting his head on the pillow.
Kandak stared at him for a long moment, no wonder he felt the sweetness inside.
Then he sighed, leaving strict orders, and returned to training.
Better: to question who he knew, could satisfy his curiosity.
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The Snake
remained motionless, sitting next to the only window, close, giving the Capital.
She had heard the entrance of Iduned, had turned slightly toward him, but he did not smile, nor any sign. He only shook hands twisting her fingers before taking her eyes and put them back on the city, lying at his feet, wrapped in an unusual gray dense, too fine drizzle and light fog.
"Elmar?"
approached him, laying a hand on his shoulder subtle, sweet.
The Snake closed his eyes, tilted his head slightly, his hair seemed to sparkle in silver brush against her cheek. Wonderful picture, something that can melt a heart of ice.
If perfection could not belong to the world, the Snake was bound to be made the subject of dreams, or at least, they seemed convinced the King.
"I am distressed - raised his hands, if he put his chest lightly pressing - and I do not know why."
He looked up at him, again, clear, bright as silver plates, wide and gentle, pure, without a shadow. The pain, he could not in any way be hidden.
Iduned, almost without realizing it, reached out a hand. He ran his fingers into the white strand that was close to face and had to restrain a thrill: smooth as silk, all as perfect as him.
An angel must have had his appearance.
fact, probably, an angel would have bowed before him, adoring him.
smiled.
"You are too sweet and emotional, my baby. You'll only hurt rested, you need not fear. "
A sigh.
"I have not seen anything that ... justify this? "
Iduned put her two fingers on his lips.
"Do not talk about the gift. Do you always causes pain and is the last thing I want. "
Elmar down his face.
"Tonight I dreamed of - silence: a long pause of wonder and awe. The Snake could see the future, without being able to retain memory of their visions, apart from rare cases, when their fate revealed some of the nodes, usually unintelligible whispering warnings. The Snake was dreaming, and sometimes, dreams were visions. - I have seen your daughter. "
Sometimes.
rarely.
King pursed lips.
Almost never.
"We do not talk to her." A breath of wind.
"Princess, your daughter was beautiful. Just like you. "
smiled in the light that became gradually more and more uncertain. No more: permanent look out the window, no longer on the city, but in the direction where Hastor had taught him there had to be the border.
War.
death.
The blood and the pain of all those frightening things he had never had a clue before being taken there.
That, and the princess Roxanne.
just smiled. He had seen her with, wearing, armor stained with mud and marked by the blows, nothing comparable to the one his father wore in the parade: but it was beautiful and strong, strong as a diamond, safe and beautiful.
Iduned worthy of his beloved daughter.
sighed letting kiss.